Monday, July 21, 2014

Taking it one week at a time!


After last week’s email, things got pretty rough. I was super depressed and thought that I had made up my mind to go home. At one point in the day, I was pretty sad about Cricket, I think I must have teared up a bit. Well, my companion asked what was wrong, so I told him about Cricket. All he had to say was "You are crying over a dog?" Then he proceeded to laugh. That was the last straw. I called the president and went to the office the next day. We talked for a good two hours. He told me that he could help. He talked with my companion and things have been better since. We still have our troubles, but he is trying a little harder. This week was better, but I have still had my struggles. 

I had the opportunity to go on exchanges two nights this week. One was with elder Davila, and the other was with elder Snyder. Elder Snyder is from the states, so I was able to speak English with him and that helped a ton. Also, I got my hands on a English Liahona, so I’ve been reading that non- stop.  I think I have read it 4 times!  It helps to read the words of Apostles. I keep reading one titled, "The Cost and Blessings of Discipleship." It’s by Jeffery R. Holland. I love it because talks about the struggles that we all face in our lives and on our missions. In Mathew 23:37-38, talks about the city Jerusalem and how it stoned prophets, and they didn’t listen to the word.  Elder Holland goes on to say...

 "And there in lies a message for every young man and woman in this church. You may wonder if it is worth it to take a courageous moral stand in high school or to go on a mission only to have your most cherished beliefs reviled or to strive against much in society that sometimes ridicules a life of religious devotion. Yes, it is worth it, because the alternative is to have our "Houses" left unto us "desolate"- Desolate individuals, desolate families, desolate neighborhoods, and desolate nations."

This hit me hard. I still want to go home. Every day I wake up and feel like crap. But then I hear the words of JRH "Yes, it is worth it." I might not be able to complete two years in this sad country, but I remind myself that every week is a success. I know people will think different of me, if I go home and I will disappoint a lot of people. But I know I am giving it my best. One of my closest missionary friends told me that if I can’t do it and if I go home early - it’s nothing to be ashamed of. Because I had the desire to serve. I have figured out that all I have to do is take it one week at a time. It’s not easy. Never was - never will be. But I’m here doing all I can to stay out.

I have turned to the scriptures for help. I was reading in 3rd Nephi chapter 17. This is when Christ visits the Nephites after his resurrection. He sits down and teaches the people, then afterwards he tells them to go home and pray about it because it is time for him to return to heaven. The people begin to cry and sob because they do not want him to go. So Jesus says "Behold, my bowels are filled with compassion towards you." He then tells them to bring all the sick to him. He heals all their sick. Then he says, bring all your little children to me and let me bless them. So all the children gather around him and he blesses them. Then he says let us pray. So everyone knelt down and this is what they said. 

"And after this manner do they bear record: The eye hath never seen neither hath the ear heard, before, so great and marvelous things as we saw and heard Jesus speak unto the Father.  And no tongue can speak, neither can there be written by any man, neither can the hearts of men conceive so great and marvelous things as we both saw and heard Jesus speak..."

What a great example. It was time for him to go, but he stayed and helped. I want to go home so bad, but I am willing to follow the example of the Savior and take it one more week at a time. I love you all at home so much and I thank everybody that has sent me emails and letters. I want to thank the young women because I read those letters every day to keep me going! I love you guys so much and I hope everyone is safe! Miss you and love you tons!

Elder Mohlman

P.S. I'm eating CUY for my birthday!!!!

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Another hard week for our family!

(This last post we had to tell Spencer about the death of our dog Cricket!  Cricket was our family dog for about 4 years, he was a tiny little schnauzer.  He was taking a walk with our new Puppy Molly to the mailbox with Tanner, Cooper, and Parker.   The dogs were attacked by a Pitbull and to save the life of his Sister, Molly- Cricket jumped down and became the bait for the Pitbull and it was over.  All three kids had to witness their dog dying.  It was pretty traumatic and sad.  I don't know if we should withhold sad information from our missionaries while they are out.  But this news, caused a huge ripple in Spencer's positive attitude, which is understandable)

Holy crap! I am sobbing. I literally can't stop crying. I was such a jerk to that dog. I miss him so much.I never thought I would take it so hard. I'm sorry that Tanner and Parker had to see that. I wish I was there to hug all of you. This is getting to be unbearably hard. My companion is really rude, and I don't get along with him. My best friend is having trouble, my family is suffering. This is really, really hard. I have a new respect for missionaries. I want you guys at home to make it a goal to befriend the missionaries. Let me tell you what I need more than anything is to have friends. It sucks. I get laughed at constantly, yelled at in Spanish, and half the time I have no clue what is going on. I just want some friends. I know one really cool missionary, but I only see him 2 times a week. So please help the missionaries, you could be the difference that keeps them out in the field. Also play games with them. Nothing means more to a missionary than when a family wants to play games. It feels like you are part of the family. I have only done it once, but it meant the world to me. I love you mom.

Having a hard time!

(I have debated if I should post Spencer's last few emails, because he is struggling a lot.  I've decided I can not paint a romanticized picture of being a Missionary.  It's hard and difficult and they will want to come home.  It is through the struggling and hardships that we truly become to know God and His purpose and plan for us.  So here is the email from July 7th. )

Hello!! This week was absolutely draining. I have wanted to hop on a plane home everyday. Its been really hard moving in with somebody that doesn't speak English. We live in a little one bedroom apartment above somebody's house. It's kinda crazy to think I will be living in this room for the next 3 months!!! Its going to be tough!  Well anyway, I will answer some of your questions. 

First off,  we don't have to cook or do laundry! Haha!  There is a lady called a Pensionista that does it all. We call her Mama Jenny. 

So as far as church service goes it was kinda depressing. I couldn't understand a single word they said in Sacrament meeting! But other than that it was pretty good. It's different, but the same. They sing the same hymns and have the same classes, but they have different mannerisms. Like if a baby is crying they don't take it out. they just let it cry. All the little kids run wild. People get up and leave all the time. I didn't realize how nice it is back at our ward!! 

So food. I have eaten some pretty disgusting things. Chickens feet, intestines mixed in rice, and eggs that have been sitting out for days. Here they take food really seriously. If you don't eat something -its disrespectful. It's really hard, you just have to think of something else. Also I only eat one meal a day, lunch. They literally serve a mountain of rice, with chicken. Its absolutely crazy!

 In terms of people I have talked to... Well in the first week I have 6 baptisms in the next month. Its pretty crazy how many people want to hear the gospel down here. My companion is Elder Chavez. He is from Trujio Peru. He is a really good guy, he is just really hard to understand. That is another reason why its so hard to stay here. I have a really hard time communicating with the person I am with 24/7. This is easily the hardest thing I have ever done. I struggle everyday to keep a positive attitude. I struggle everyday, deciding weather or not I should stay out. I read the letters that you sent as well as the letters others sent me everyday. They really help! I really do like it out here, but it is really really hard. It's hard to see I'm out here for a purpose, but when I do see it- it becomes easier.

On a better note!  There are tones of dogs here so the fact that you guys just got a puppy isn't as depressing. I have found 3 puppies this week! They are all so cute! Also the food down here is super cheap. Paltas or avocados are 50 centimos for a kg! We eat a lot of avocados. Then Pina or pinapple is 50 centimos for one, they are huge and really rico or tasty! On the bus today the radio was playing 80s rock it was pretty awesome! There are a lot of things I miss from home. Grass yards, fields, stoplights, houses, sidewalks, family home evening, and of course my family. Sometimes I wonder how people do this. Its is really a testimony shaker. I guess you just have to push through it. I love you guys so much and miss you all like crazy! Tell Vince he needs to email me! I hope you guys are doing well Love you all so much!!!!!

Love, Elder Mohlman

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

3:00am to Arequipa & no ozone layer!

Wow!!! So day one was absolutely crazy! We woke up at 3:00am and flew to Arequipa! It is such a nice place! We got to see the site where they are building the temple, and many more landmarks! We went to the mission home and I got my companion for the next 3 months his name is Elder Chavez. We live in a tiny room above a members house. I really like the downtown part of Arequipa it is super nice and really old. One thing that is really interesting down here is there is no ozone layer... So basically I better keep the sunscreen on! I think that I will really like this place! I can't email for very long today so sorry this is short. But Monday's are P-days. I will email you again then! I also got all your letters the day I left!! Thanks so much to everyone that sent me one.  They have really helped me! Well, I love you guys so much and hope you all are well!  I will be able to write you letters now that I can send them! Also for future reverence... if you send packages send them via USPS, and plaster it with the Catholic Jesus like on the cross, or the Virgin Mary. They won't touch it! Well I hope you guys are doing good, because I am! Miss you tons!
Love, Elder Mohlman