Hey!!!
After last week’s
email, things got pretty rough. I was super depressed and thought that I had
made up my mind to go home. At one point in the day, I was pretty sad about Cricket,
I think I must have teared up a bit. Well, my companion asked what was wrong, so
I told him about Cricket. All he had to say was "You are crying over a
dog?" Then he proceeded to laugh. That was the last straw. I called the
president and went to the office the next day. We talked for a good two hours.
He told me that he could help. He talked with my companion and things have been
better since. We still have our troubles, but he is trying a little harder.
This week was better, but I have still had my struggles.
I had the opportunity
to go on exchanges two nights this week. One was with elder Davila, and the
other was with elder Snyder. Elder Snyder is from the states, so I was able to
speak English with him and that helped a ton. Also, I got my hands on a English
Liahona, so I’ve been reading that non- stop. I think I have read it 4 times! It helps to read the words of Apostles. I keep
reading one titled, "The Cost and Blessings of Discipleship." It’s by
Jeffery R. Holland. I love it because talks about the struggles that we all
face in our lives and on our missions. In Mathew 23:37-38, talks about the city
Jerusalem and how it stoned prophets, and they didn’t listen to the word. Elder Holland goes on to say...
"And there
in lies a message for every young man and woman in this church. You may wonder
if it is worth it to take a courageous moral stand in high school or to go on a
mission only to have your most cherished beliefs reviled or to strive against
much in society that sometimes ridicules a life of religious devotion. Yes, it
is worth it, because the alternative is to have our "Houses" left
unto us "desolate"- Desolate individuals, desolate families, desolate
neighborhoods, and desolate nations."
This hit me hard. I
still want to go home. Every day I wake up and feel like crap. But then I hear
the words of JRH "Yes, it is worth it." I might not be able to complete
two years in this sad country, but I remind myself that every week is a success.
I know people will think different of me, if I go home and I will disappoint a lot
of people. But I know I am giving it my best. One of my closest missionary
friends told me that if I can’t do it and if I go home early - it’s nothing to be
ashamed of. Because I had the desire to serve. I have figured out that all I
have to do is take it one week at a time. It’s not easy. Never was - never will
be. But I’m here doing all I can to stay out.
I have turned to the
scriptures for help. I was reading in 3rd Nephi chapter 17. This is when Christ
visits the Nephites after his resurrection. He sits down and teaches the
people, then afterwards he tells them to go home and pray about it because it
is time for him to return to heaven. The people begin to cry and sob because
they do not want him to go. So Jesus says "Behold, my bowels are filled with
compassion towards you." He then tells them to bring all the sick
to him. He heals all their sick. Then he says, bring all your little children
to me and let me bless them. So all the children gather around him and he
blesses them. Then he says let us pray. So everyone knelt down and this is what
they said.
"And after this manner do they bear record: The eye hath never seen
neither hath the ear heard, before, so great and marvelous things as we saw and
heard Jesus speak unto the Father. And
no tongue can speak, neither can there be written by any man, neither can the
hearts of men conceive so great and marvelous things as we both saw and heard
Jesus speak..."
What a great example.
It was time for him to go, but he stayed and helped. I want to go home so bad,
but I am willing to follow the example of the Savior and take it one more week
at a time. I love you all at home so much and I thank everybody that has sent
me emails and letters. I want to thank the young women because I read those
letters every day to keep me going! I love you guys so much and I hope everyone
is safe! Miss you and love you tons!
Elder Mohlman
P.S. I'm eating CUY for
my birthday!!!!
